Trust Me: Author Notes

[thebratqueen]

And, naturally, I can't promise that this will come in any coherent order ;)

Anyway...

The idea for Trust Me (TM, 'cause I'm lazy like that) was born from the constant little hum of stories that are always going on in the background of my mind. See, basically I'm always pondering something. Now it might not be something I'd ever care to expose to the light of day, but at any given time I've always got some story of some sort going on in the back of my head.

If I'm not brainstorming a story specifically then it's playing around with ideas and concepts. As you can imagine, a lot of that is indulgence stuff. Happy little fic kinks that I can play for myself in surround sound and bask in the custom-made nummyness.

Putting that stuff together is pretty much catch as catch can. Some stories are inspired by moments on the show. Some are random ideas in my head. Still others get inspiration from day to day life. Once I get the germ of an idea I then play around with it. Change the setting, time, background, whatever. Sometimes that evolves into a story, most of the time it just stays in my head.

At the time the germ of the idea for TM came together my LJ records tell me that I was going through blizzards and snow, so if I had to guess that was probably what started me off. People having to warm up from the cold is actually something of a fic kink of mine, and whenever I'm working out kinks like that Wes is my go-to guy. If I'm having a bad day, he's having a bad day - except he gets hot sweaty mansex out of it and I just get to wear out the letters on my keyboard.

So Wes having to warm up in the cold is what probably started it. Then it's stuff like okay, where is he that it's cold? What's he doing? Who's making him warm? A bit of a Pretty Woman style rescue is another kink, so that's how we get Angel meeting Wes while he's cold and being the guy who's doing the stuff to help warm him up - hence diner, and the giving of coffee and soup. And hey, as long as we're doing little orphan Wesley let's go whole hog with it and make him dirt poor.

That adds all new dimensions to it. Because then you need Angel rescuing him from the rough outdoors, so Angel's got to give him a place to live. And actually inviting Wes up to his place puts a whole different vibe to this comfort, so enter the guest apartment that Angel generously lets to him.

I don't know what exactly inspired the idea of a baby. Possibly it was A Million Miles Away because I see in my LJ notes that Wolf and I posted a new installment right around then. Possibly it was just because it added an extra dimension to Wes's plight. Plus, you know, sensitive-new-age-guys and their babies = hot.

Okay then, it's my imagination. I can give Wes a kid if I want to. So scribble in baby Connor. Except... huh. No. That's silly. Because if Wes is a dad then why not bond with Angel as a dad? So take out baby Connor and put in teenage Connor. Now we get to show Angel as sexy single dad with Experience, and he can further take Wes under his wing as he waxes nostalgic about bottle feeding and the like.

Which is sort of kind of where I was about here, when I posted about having a bunny that was so AU that I didn't even know why it was bothering to stick around. Because really at this point this is masturbatory kinkfic in the extreme, especially when you consider how silly the premise is. Hell, Pet or Strategy have more canonical setups than this. Pfft. I'm not writing it.

But I kept thinking about it. And thinking about it and thinking about it. And to date the only other extreme bunny I've had like that is one for Wes/Faith that's so AU that I can't imagine ever even trying to write it as fanfic. But both had the same thing in common in that they were sticking around long enough that I felt like something was up. So I kept thinking it over.

And that's when it turned into the MONSTER EVIL PLOT BUNNY FROM HELL. Because the lightbulb that went off in my head was: what if it was an AU? What if that was the point? An entire story with this setup where in the end we find out that it was an actual universe and everything happened for a reason?

So now I had a challenge on my hands.

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Once I had the AU idea in my head I knew that what I wanted it to be was something that would come off as "TBQ has clearly lost her mind and is doing human AU fic." Because the one thing I wanted absolutely clear was that the AU itself was real. Realer than The Wish, even, though that was the concept I was basing it on to some extent. I didn't want to do a cursory sweep around this new place and then go "Ha ha! Fooled ya! It was all a dream!" I knew that if this was going to work then the human side of it had to be real and had to be written well. Which is part of why I grabbed stakebait for brainstorming purposes (because I knew she wouldn't read a human AU if a naked Spike asked her to, so I knew she wouldn't mind being spoiled) and wolfling for beta purposes (because unlike Strategy and Pet I wanted to make sure these were actual parts of a story and not me rambling on without a care).

So - setup a human AU. Set up a believable AU with the details sketched in, everything was, as much as fiction can be, "real", and then only in the very last parts reveal that it was all of Angel's creation.

I knew from the premise that it would be Angel who created this. I debated a little bit about where it would veer off (would this be an AU from Home, for instance?) but decided that Destiny gave the best jumping off point. Angel's backstory, then, was that after the fight with Spike he realized that he was too much in despair, he hated everything about his new life, and he wanted to give up and go live a life with Connor. Thus making everything of that universe something of Angel's creation.

Wes's role, then, was erstwhile rescuer. He was going to be there as the only other person who would know that this wasn't real and he was going to save Angel - or so he thought.

Now to keep the reality of the AU constant Wes couldn't know what was going on, so I had to invent rules that would cover that. I decided that the simpliest thing was to say that whatever happened to Angel when he went to the new universe would also happen to Wes. It would all be real to them, memories and all, and only a spell would break it.

And I want to take a second here to say that, as Lilah points out in the story, Angel created a reality. So this wasn't a Dawn-style memory wipe where Angel made an alternate universe where everyone just had different memories of what happened. The things that happened happened. The only difference is whether or not any of the characters would be aware of the reality that paralleled theirs, and if so to what extent. So, for example, it's not that Angel just hopped one dimension over, got a human body, and assumed the memories of Angel, diner-owner extraordinare. He actually lived all that. Ditto Wes and everybody else.

Of course this then creates a problem for me as the author, because how do I then handle the concepts of the doubles? And the concept of why Wes is looking for Angel in the first place? Plus where's the tension at the end of the story where it needs to be decided if anyone is staying or leaving?

I decided to fix this by swiping ideas from body-switching stories and the like, where supposedly the universe wants everything to be where it's supposed to be. So if Angel created these twin realities, so to speak, then yeah things could stay twins but if anything crossed the lines then they melded back into one. Which is really just so much technobabble and smoke and mirrors but what can ya do?

So Angel, Connor and even Darla get to go over wholesale, with the Wolfram & Hart reality, for lack of a better label, simply blurring history however necessary to fix the gaps. Wes then figures out that something's up (just as Giles in The Wish had a gut instinct that things could be better than they seemed), gets the truth out of Lilah, and goes over to the TM reality and thus melds with the version of himself that's over there. Thus giving me my necessary memory loss for Angel and Wesley (as people in their realities only know of their realities until spelled to know otherwise) and giving me my conflict at the end in terms of the boys needing to make a decision about which reality they'd live in.

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The diner stayed as the meeting point because I decided that if Angel lived a normal life he'd probably not have much money, he'd probably work for himself, and in terms of wishing a reality into existance he'd probably want to be doing something that put him in the center of everybody's lives in a role not unlike that of a father figure.

Poking at the location I decided to make it the town of *coughcoughcough* in the state of *COUGHcoughCOUGHcough* in New England, because to me it made sense that Angel would have a jones for getting as far away from the LA scene as possible without actually ending up in, say, South Africa. So I put him in a tiny little one ATM town with plenty of horse and cattle and plenty of those snowstorms that I knew he'd love so much (and hey, if it doesn't actually snow that much in good ol' *coughcoughcough* we can always say that Angel asked for a change in the weather too).

Which allowed me to keep the original germ of the idea, which was poor cold Wes walking into this diner and being taken care of.

Now the first thing I did with Wes's backstory is get rid of the kid. Which is funny now that you've read it but at the time I was figuring that was just schmoopy indulgent bullshit on my part and had no part in the tale. Wes's key would be the dollar bill and all I had to do was provide some new form of magic technobabble for him to stumble upon in order to use it to work the spell.

But the more I thought about it the more I realized I actually needed the baby. Because when I was just playing around with the story before the reason why Angel was inspired to trust this shabby guy coming in off the streets was because he was taking care of a kid. I tried to figure out reasons for Angel to feel a similar level of compassion for Wes all on his own and it just wouldn't work. Compassion on its own, yes. But not the deep level of it that I needed to inspire in order to get Angel to fully take Wes under his wing. It felt too forced, like I was saying Angel would do it because I said so and because Angel and Wes are Twu Wub 4evah! and not because of any real reason in the text.

So I started pondering it a bit and as I did I realized the kid was the key. Not just for the extent of Angel's compassion but for the story itself.

You see, when I thought of the idea for the AU being the point I figured the drama at the end would come from Angel and Wesley both having to confront the concept of what Angel's wishes really meant, especially in terms of making unilateral decisions on other people's behalf. Angel was going to angst about having done it and Wes was going to finally gain some sympathy for it - and maybe angst about having done it himself as well.

Put in that light I realized it was moronic not to have the kid. After all, what better way to twist Wes by the balls than to have him go through a decision where he could save the world or he could save his child but he could not do both?

As Robert Evans says, the kid stayed in the picture.

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Having decided to keep the baby I then decided to go all out with it. She would be as meta as I could make her. Part of the story, yes. If people didn't fully believe that Wes adored and lived for this kid then the whole premise would fall apart. But if she stuck out like a sore thumb that would be okay too. I wanted her to. I wanted people to notice her like the woman in the red dress. Which is why she was named Alissa.

I hauled over to babynames.com and looked up names that meant "truth". Of the selection, Alissa and Veronica seemed the two likely choices. I then asked Wolf, giving her only enough backstory to know that Wes was going to have a daughter and just go with me on that, which of the two names she thought was best. She said Veronica was a little too Archie comics, so Alissa it was.

(And in a bit of "I planned that the whole time - sure I did!" I then got to write in that since, according to babynames.com, Alissa had Hebrew origins then Lilah had picked that name deliberately not only because of what it meant but because it was likely to be a language Wes would still know.)

So there it was. Wes's kid. And just to be sure to leave enough hints I even put in the narrative a bit about Angel going "huh" over the name, and mentioning that it was Hebrew. Not so much that it would be a jarring neon sign, but hopefully enough that it would make people wonder about the name too, if only for a second.

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Once I had all that I then filled in Wes's backstory. As you can imagine all that this involved was shoving Wes through the same non-magic filter that I'd shoved Angel through. Wes's dad remained Wes's dad. The Council turned into a family business. And the pressure on Wes's life turned into Wes coming from an insanely rich family. (I personally suspect that canonically the Wyndam-Pryces aren't exactly living in the projects, but for the purposes of TM I figured make Wes as rich as possible - both to create a snapshot picture of his former life but also to give him a higher place to fall) Change Angel & the gang not being there when Wes nearly died to Wes's dad not being there when Wes did die, if only for a moment, tweak the timeline just a tiny bit and there ya go. All that was left was to change Wes's rebellion by going all evil/grey into Wes's rebellion by actually rebelling, complete with sex, booze, and rock & roll. At that point we throw in Lilah from the rival company and everything fell into place.

That Wes and Lilah didn't use condoms was fortunately canon (yes, I do watch to this obsessive a level. what's your point?) so that gave me my in as far as getting Lilah pregnant. I then figured that TM Lilah (because she had to have her own motivations for the AU to work - everything had to stand on its own) kept the baby because, as Angel guessed, she had emotions for Wes that she wasn't admitting to. That allowed TM Lilah to accept her ultimate fate with the same Lilah-like resignation that WH Lilah had regarding her nonbreakable contract.

I then needed a reason for Wes to be helpless and out of his element, so the rivalry was upped to the point where Lilah's family replaced Wolfram & Hart, Wes's family disowned him, and once again Wes was in a position of being on the run with a baby that neither his supposed friends nor his foes wanted him to have.

This actually turned out to be a great decision narratively speaking because it put Wes into the place of filling in for the reader. He was new to the world too so I could use him to walk around and get stuff explained to him. It also worked out great for him as a character because it made him a man of secrets who couldn't reveal much about his past - true for that reality while at the same time being a big question mark about how much both the characters in the fic and the readers could trust him.

Plus it allowed me to use lines like "My world is very different from yours", because you gotta love the ability to make use of a leitmotif ;)

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The prologue of TM was put out there to be a nice big red flag. Deliberately ambiguous, ending with a note of portent, it was meant to be the biggest hint that something was up. If I did my job I lulled you into a state where you completely forgot about it about halfway through the fic, but at no time could you say I hadn't given some kind of warning that there were questions there that had yet to be answered - and therefore at some point the answer was coming.

If I also did my job right I hope by the end of the fic that it's understood that not only are the speakers Wes and Lilah, but that both the prologue and the prologue redux show both Wes and Lilahs. One of WH reality, one of TM. The first is Wes arguing with Lilah in the hospital after he's found out that there's potentially fatal complications with the pregnancy (Swathes of grey draped over the furniture, lending it a rather funereal feel. He observed this and thought to himself that it was rather apt, all things considered.). He wants to bitch at the doctors and fight and Lilah's telling him it's a dumb idea because really he doesn't get a say in this no matter how much he wants to play Mr Fix-it. After all, some things can't be changed. Later on, when Wes tells Angel the story of him and Lilah, I hope at that point anybody who still remembered the prologue went "Ohhh" and figured that they knew what it was from - especially since Wes says that's what Lilah told him at the time.

Of course the kicker is that Angel knows the line too, and that surprises Wes, and much like Angel noticing that Alissa was an odd name that was also meant to be a subtle hint. Why would both of them remember the exact same warning?

The second prologue is, obviously, Wes at Wolfram & Hart as he argues with Lilah about going to get Angel back. Similar dialogue, slightly different narrative, and an extra puzzle piece about Wes figuring out what matters to him.

FWIW at no time did I picture a Lilah in any reality being schmoopy and soft-hearted and rending her garments in the name of saving her dear, dear Wesley-love. What I figured is that Lilah did care for him in her way, was touched by Wes's attempt to save her, and when Wes came to her all atwitter because Angel was gone she knew this was the time that she could kick Wes out of W&H for his own damn good. As Wes says, Lilah knows him better than anyone and she knew that this wasn't really the place for him. She'd give Wes that chance to go to the TM reality but at that point she knew that what Wes thought was important to him wasn't necessarily what was most important to him and he'd probably decide accordingly.

I decided that Lilah's destinies in both realities, too, was that her relationship with Wes would significantly change Wes's life. Canon shows what WH reality Lilah did. In TM she makes Wes a daddy.

***

Wes's fever dream turned into another "I planned this the whole time, no really" tools. Anybody following TM from the beginning knows that Wes's little coughing jags were an inspiration of _green_ saying that poor destitute human Wes should have a cough. Green and I apparently have similar kinks because that worked for me too, so I wrote it in.

Then once I had it I realized Wes being sick was a smoking gun that needed taking care of, and fevers are always a great tool for blurring the line of what is and isn't real. So Wes works himself to exhaustion, has his fever dream, and in it once again the realities get all mixy.

That's why when somebody pointed out that there was a grammar error in parts of the dialogue it killed me that I couldn't fix it. Normally I'm happy when people let me know when my fly is open, so to speak, but with that dream I needed the bits that came from canon to echo canon exactly to help lay the groundwork for showing that there was more of the WH universe in TM than might meet the eye. In that fever dream Wes is actually getting dialogue from both realities, hence why some is exact and some is slightly different, even though at the time it seems as though it's nothing but TM dialogue to begin with. It's not until later that we find out it was WH Lilah who warned Wes he'd face a point of having to ask himself what really mattered. TM Lilah only said give the dollar to their daughter when the time was right.

It was also around about that time that I think I started to realize that Wes was more the protagonist of the tale than Angel was. As I said before my original idea was that both of them would question the decision to stay there, but in the end I saw that it would work much better if it was just Wes. Angel made the decision going in. He had his eyes opened the whole time. It wasn't even a conflict for him to wonder if he might stay or not. Angel, then, became the touchstone character. At all times he had the experience and knew what he was doing. It was Wes's job to discover himself and make the final decision in the end.

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Foreshadowing! I've already talked about some hints but let me cover what bits of foreshadowing I can remember off the top of my head. Obviously Lorne is the big one. Everybody's saying Wes is adorable and Lorne's the only one pointing out that he's got a bad feeling about this. Later on Angel echoes this during the New Year's Eve party, adding in two other predictions of Lorne's as well. We may never know how the one about the shirt worked out, but obviously we know now why Lorne had a bad feeling about the football game too.

Other bits of foreshadowing come from Wes. When Angel hauls him over for a kiss Wes feels like he's found what he's been looking for that whole time - well... yes, since that's why he's there in the first place. Wes also shivers, as though being haunted by a memory. Again, yes since he is. Later still Wes realizes he's falling in love with Angel and shakes with fear - that would be his subconscious screaming its head off, trying to warn him about the danger this presents.

Not so much foreshadowing but a hint - Angel loving the snow on Christmas because it made him feel alive was more than an Amends shout-out. It was Amends. After all, why would an Angel who had never been saved by Christmas snow have that much of a parallel fetish for it? Him liking it for that specific reason in the TM reality was a tiny hint that somewhere in there was the Angel who'd lived through Amends and he was just waiting to come out.

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When building the TM universe I figured it had to have rules in order to make sense. "Some things can't be changed" was, obviously, the major one. So people who were fated to die still died - sorry Doyle. Darla couldn't avoid dying from an illness but Angel could at least push the date up a bit so Connor could spend time with his mommy, something Angel knew would be important to him.

Those who died from vampire deaths were given a second chance as I felt Angel would want it that way - plus it made sense given Angel's demand for no vamps in his new homeland. So Gunn's sister is still alive and apparently inspiring Angel and Gunn to go to quilting bees - or at least lie and say they were there on her behalf. Harmony's still alive and kicking and annoying the heck out of Angel per usual.

I knew Angel couldn't be so far gone that he'd totally abandon his responsibilites in WH reality, so Spike got the new job of Champion - which means sorry gang, no Spike over here. As Wes says Buffy and Faith had destinies to be Slayers, which keeps them firmly on the otherside with Spike because Angel, paranoid boy that he is, also demanded a universe with no magic in it. (Not that magic couldn't be imported in, obviously, since Wes was able to do the spell).

Personalities were still the same. Obviously shaking everybody out and having Gunn still be a lawyer, Kate a cop, Cordy working for Angel and Fred be a big brain (I debated a bit on what her job would be before deciding that doctor made the most sense both for her IQ and for what would be a plausible job for her to have in a podunk town like theirs) was not a hard task. Funnily enough Gwen needed a little thought, since she obviously needed something that would respect her freak status yet make sense for the area. I finally decided on lingerie shop as in small towns those do tend to still get the evil eye and I thought it worked for Gwen's personality without going the uber-cheesy route and giving her, say, a tattoo parlor.

Lorne got a travel agency because it gave him the chance to be schmoozy without biting on Angel's turf as diner owner (making Lorne own a bar was just too redundant, especially in terms of giving Wes a job). Plus it provided a way to hint at Wes's own intelligence and schooling. Of course it's a small town so not like Lorne could make a lot of money from it, which is part of why I gave him residual checks from a commercial gig. Thus kind of turning Lorne into Hugh Grant in About a Boy, in his own way ;)

I have to admit saying it was for a Tropicana commercial is, IMO, about the cheesiest thing in the whole fic. I'm still not sure if I'm satisfied with it. I did it because he worked the Tropicana in canon, so I figured if he was allowed a destiny of a big break there then he could be allowed one here, and if so why not have the two mirror each other? But... I dunno. On the one hand Tropicana certainly would be a good enough gig to explain where he gets the cash, on the other it feels like I didn't give it enough of a personalized twist. So who knows? I may leave it, I may change it before posting it officially.

Connor's personality and his relationship with Angel was based a great deal off of the glimpse of him we get in Home, where we see him as the successful student making jokes with his family. Angel wanted that normal life so I knew he'd want circumstances that would allow him this Gilmore Girls-style relationship with his kid. I fuzzy tigered the timeline a bit to allow Connor to still be in high school and there we are.

Angel being an alcoholic was a no-brainer, as was translating his history with Darla into a high school sweetheart relationship. Darla surprised everybody by wanting to be a good mom in canon so she got to have her chance at it in TM.

I decided that Angel couldn't change his destiny of having problems with his kid, which, combined with the Angelus s2 and the beige Angel stuff from AtS s2 (though again without worrying about perfectly parallel timelines) meant Angel fell off the wagon, screwed up bigtime, and had to work to regain Connor's trust. I also threw in some therapy because damn if both boys couldn't use some ;)

As Angel says, he couldn't change anybody's personalities so even though he's just some guy who owns a diner Angel's still doing what he can to help those helpless. Nobody's surprised when he takes Wes under his wing, and he's known for taking the law into his own hands when he feels it's time to deliver a smackdown.

The situation with Tracy actually evolved as I wrote the fic. I don't know why but I just had this picture of Angel being the guy Connor's friends would come to if there was a problem. That turned into Connor's girlfriend having a problem which turned into a scene which allowed me to show both Angel and Connor having their heroic instincts. Plus I liked the elements it gave to Connor's personality where for all that he was a fairly good student and a jock that he still was the kind of kid who picked a withdrawn girl to be his girlfriend. I picture Connor and his friends not being the popular kids, but being the ones who sit at their own table and do their own ecclectic little thing. And, like his dad, Connor probably gets into a lot of trouble for starting fights in order to stand up for what he thinks is fair.

Anyone who memorized the earlier parts, by the way, would have noticed Tracy's situation being one that came up as the story was written. Originally when busting Connor's chops about borrowing the car Angel asks "And Tracy's mom and/or dad will be there, right?" But once I decided that Tracy's mother was going to have bad taste in boyfriends I had to run back and quickly edit that out so it wouldn't be there anymore if anybody did a re-read. Of course now I've told you about it so there goes my suave save ;)

Something else that evolved while writing the fic was all the flashbacks. I didn't plan on Angel being that chatty about his past, but once he started it added elements to the character. We got to see how he related to being a widower, plus it worked as a window to make the world more real. If I ever do a sequel to this I can't imagine not including more.

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Things that made the cutting room floor:

Angel originally had a line about really wanting to put Harmony through a meat grinder which was both meant to be funny and to have double meaning later once we find out that it's the same Angel with the torture kink, but the dialogue didn't flow that way and Harmony faded into the background so there we are.

Angel and Darla were originally going to be drug addicts too but I found that was redundant and messed up the parallelism of the alcoholism so I got rid of it.

Likewise the surprise of Connor was going to be due to infertility, but I realized there'd be no way for Darla and Angel to know they were infertile given the lives they were leading, so it turned into them being birth control fanatics who found out there's a reason why not having sex is the only 100% effective method ;)

Angel was originally going to hurt Connor, not himself, in his flashback to the night he hit rock bottom and decided to become sober again, but I didn't like what that did to the dynamic between Connor and him. I felt that an Angel who could hit Connor like that ever was a different kind of person, and not one that we could relate to in the same way as an Angel who was screwing up simply because he was in despair. Plus Angel and Connor in both worlds had to work out issues with how Angel's demon - metaphorial or otherwise - affected their lives, not their actual relationship. So Angel decided to kill himself instead, which parallels the times he tries it in s2 AtS. Connor being the thing that saves Angel in TM is an echo of how Connor as a concept is now the thing that Angel lives and hopes for.

Cordy was originally going to be a bit flirty with Wes but I decided to cut that for time, especially since it didn't do anything in terms of plot points.

In the Christmas scene I originally wrote the dialogue differently but scrapped it when it didn't feel right (this was when I was writing it while tired). The only part of it that remains is Angel telling Connor that he's not allowed to make the rolls ever again. In the first draft we find out that Connor had made the rolls and was swearing that it was Angel's fault if he couldn't tell they really were all shaped like Florida.

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By the time I got up to the final parts what surprised me too was how even though this was conceived as a one-off story what it was starting to feel like was more of an intro into something else. Possibly because of the deliberate proportions of full-on AU to chapters where we find out the truth. I had originally thought that the point of the story would be to show Angel and Wes (and then just Wes) coming to this realization about who they were as men and what their priorities were, but as I actually wrote it I started to see shades of stories to come. Yes, obviously there's the issue of Lindsey coming after Wes - which was included in this story not so much for a "to be continued" as to show a portrait of Wes really being up a creek without a paddle no matter what he decided to do. But then Angel's conversation with Connor sounded more like a setup for something than an ending, and his subsequent conversation with Wes had similiar feelings too.

If I do a sequel it'll be just that - a sequel, with a nice big story like this one and not little tiny stories posted serial style a la Epiphany or something. Currently I have ideas for B and C plots but no A plot as yet. If I figure out one then yeah, I'll write it.

If I do write it things I'd like to include would be flashbacks to Angel and Doyle's first meeting, flashbacks to more of Angel and Connor's life with Darla, flashbacks to Wes and Lilah's first meeting, more of the wacky adventures of what's the same and what's different between both realities (including what the heck happened to Dru) and Angel and Wes having to deal with the dissonance of living these normal mortal lives while fully aware of the other reality that's out there - and all it entails.

So who knows? It might happen. =)

And now I've got to go to bed. Night!