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Loose ends of various kinds
Mar. 13th, 2005 07:43 pmApologies to those who thought this post was about me being in trouble. I promise there's nothing to worry about. The help request was about beta reading, not anything horrible. (Unless one finds beta reading to be horrible, I suppose).
I will admit, though, that all is not well in the land of TBQ. I've been sleeping horribly for a couple of weeks now thanks to on-again, off-again nightmares. There's a bit of luck, however, in that whenever I get nightmares it's due to a specific reason, and today I finally realized it's due to me laying heavy guilt trips on myself for all the things I haven't done yet (updated the website, completed the charity fic requests, called people I said I'd call - and this is just to name a few items off of a long list).
Of course this then creates a vicious cycle because the stress makes me sleep poorly, which makes me tired, which makes me less able to do what I need to do, which makes me stress more, which makes me sleep poorly, which makes me even more tired, lather, rinse, repeat.
I don't know that there's a solution to any of this as sadly nothing on the list is expendible. Well, let me rephrase that. Obviously nobody will die if, as for example, my website doesn't get updated, but it does need to be updated, regardless of when. And the way my brain works is that things not yet done weigh on me heavily, and that leads to a lot of no fun for the psyche after a while.
On the plus side I was able to get some sleep last night, and this morning I tried to relax a bit with some tea and clearing some of the smaller items off the To Do list, so it's not as dire as all that. I just need to deal with my guilt issues, which isn't news to anyone who's read this LJ before.
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In completely unrelated news, does anybody have an mp3 of Free Love on the Free Love Freeway? The full version with Noel Gallagher? Because damn if that song isn't an earworm, plus I've got the road trip to Connexions coming up and I can't help but feel that's one of the songs that should go on the mix CD that I'll be bringing with. 8)
Also, I was reminded that I never did get around to giving the answer to what's the #1 thing people write to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
ats_nolimits about. So, if you want to know, it's variations on the theme of ( this )
My hope is that most, if not all of them are joking. ;)
And now I go to make dinner.
I will admit, though, that all is not well in the land of TBQ. I've been sleeping horribly for a couple of weeks now thanks to on-again, off-again nightmares. There's a bit of luck, however, in that whenever I get nightmares it's due to a specific reason, and today I finally realized it's due to me laying heavy guilt trips on myself for all the things I haven't done yet (updated the website, completed the charity fic requests, called people I said I'd call - and this is just to name a few items off of a long list).
Of course this then creates a vicious cycle because the stress makes me sleep poorly, which makes me tired, which makes me less able to do what I need to do, which makes me stress more, which makes me sleep poorly, which makes me even more tired, lather, rinse, repeat.
I don't know that there's a solution to any of this as sadly nothing on the list is expendible. Well, let me rephrase that. Obviously nobody will die if, as for example, my website doesn't get updated, but it does need to be updated, regardless of when. And the way my brain works is that things not yet done weigh on me heavily, and that leads to a lot of no fun for the psyche after a while.
On the plus side I was able to get some sleep last night, and this morning I tried to relax a bit with some tea and clearing some of the smaller items off the To Do list, so it's not as dire as all that. I just need to deal with my guilt issues, which isn't news to anyone who's read this LJ before.
***
In completely unrelated news, does anybody have an mp3 of Free Love on the Free Love Freeway? The full version with Noel Gallagher? Because damn if that song isn't an earworm, plus I've got the road trip to Connexions coming up and I can't help but feel that's one of the songs that should go on the mix CD that I'll be bringing with. 8)
Also, I was reminded that I never did get around to giving the answer to what's the #1 thing people write to
ats_nolimits about. So, if you want to know, it's variations on the theme of ( this )My hope is that most, if not all of them are joking. ;)
And now I go to make dinner.
