FYI

I've noticed that I'm now exhibiting my usual "Stress levels are on overload" emotional symptoms due to Tommy's death. Please excuse me if, while this is going on, I get quiet or back away from a lot of things (like conversations). When I get like this I need to get very slow and basic on taking care of myself.

Thanks.

Update

Bleh. Having the first out loud conversations that deal with practicalities of Tommy's death. Got out of doing service leader duty this Sunday at my church because there's no way I could get up there without crying. I don't even think I'm going to go. All those nice people asking me how I am is not something I can cope with.

And what's playing on the radio when I hang up the phone from that conversation? "I'll be home for Christmas" a song that makes me weepy at the best of times. God obviously has not yet lost his sense of humor (and I do not say that bitchily).

Tomorrow is a day off. This is a good thing.